Day 10

What is your greatest joy? Your greatest sorrow?

My greatest joy is definitely my family. I say it all the time, but I love them so much. I know that sometimes (most of the time) Im a terrible mom, frustrated with no patience, but I love my kids more than anything. Matt has been my rock since we've been married. I would feel so lost without my family.

My greatest sorrow....hmmm... is it sad I can think of a few? The hardest time in my life was definitely after high school when I had an eating disorder and had all kinds of problems at home. I dont talk to hardly anyone about this, so its kind of hard to put into words. I was at an inpatient hospital in Kansas City (for anorexia) and I was trying to make sense of everything going on at home. I felt so hopeless. I felt lost. I felt so alone. I didnt have any desire to even live anymore. It was a really dark place I hope I never go to again. It was then that everything came out. All the secrets I'd kept, all the people I never wanted to hurt got hurt. Looking back I know that it was the best thing that could have happened, but my parents ended up getting divorced. It was tough to go through, but the outcome couldnt have been any better. Im greatful for all I learned from that experience.